So its day 5. God this is hard. Well yesterday during the day, i must admit.. i felt a little better.. not better but i guess normal if you will. But all of a sudden around 4 that went to shit and i went right back to my mood again. I came to realization that what he wanted from was security, something i couldnt give him, especially with going to law school soon and everything. Well that realization held me over till yesterday... but here I am again.. in the slump..The longest we have ever gone without talking is 7 days.. and god knows im going to die if he doesnt message me on friday.. but i have a horrible feeling he wont. I have come to the realization though that I dont want him back.. well completely.. i just want the "us" part back. This would be sooo much easier if I knew he was thinking about me, if knew he was wondering what I was doing. If he was worrying about me.. if knew all that then.. well first wonder why we arent tsill together.. but would feal alot more comforted. right now.. i feel like im the last thing on his mind.. and definitly dont have a place in his heart..i know this is a repeat of my first post .. and if you are lost.. get the full story "God Damn Stupidity" But anyways... i know its the same... but..guess im just looking for comfort right now..the most i can eat is a meal a day if that..and i forgot what it ment to smile.. hell im slowly forgetting his face....help..