i think i need them right now. not suicidal but feeling really really down. main problem is i dont want to get out of bed.. even if im awake, i just want to lay there. a lot of times i will have a good dream and when i wake up, i wish i never woked up and just lay there thinking about it. also feel unmotivated and people say i look down/never smiling. i think the reasons im feeling down is because im always broke; my job isnt going anywhere and the company seems to not care about anything; getting more and more into debt and its getting scary (collections, owed taxes); got an business opportunity to work on my own to make better money but not very motivated and taking it too slow.. and afraid; family issues; not really meeting new people and friends i did have are moving apart or moving away; best friend is going away to college very soon and this is the only guy i really hang out with these days and soon he will be gone; sold my baby (car) which i blew a lot of money and time into because of financial reasons and now missing it.. that car was the only way i got girls and meet new people; and not really doing much these days. how does antidepressants make you feel? do you feel like a whole different person? or does it feel just everyday is a good day? i think i just need a picker upper so i can be more motivated for a while. any kind anyone recommends? i dont have health insurance so how would i get my hands on them without paying an arm and a leg?