basically i was the fat kid with a lazy eye all through hs/beginning of college. got eye surgery and lost 100lbs, began to try dating. so im not that experienced met a girl last semester, hang out for like a month, we are hooking up(just oral and shit) a few times a week. anyway, after a month, we get drunk and go back to her place and start to have sex. this is my first time and she knows this. after a few minutes she pushes me off and basically tells me to leave, which i did. this happened like 5 or 6 times, with me getting kicked out 3 of those times. everytime i apologized(i thought that i was doing something wrong) and we got back together or whatever. so after a while i get kinda pissed, let her know that i thought it was mean and she tells me thats just the way she is and i need to deal with it. eventually she tells me i am too immature and cut off the relationship. i haven't talked with her since. is this messed up? or does she have every right to do this since i was/is a fuckin virgin and she didnt want to put up with my shit?