Well, let's just say that I was a very shy person before and realized my problem and improved myself. Now, I am not even a shadow of what I was before but I am stomped with another problem; women. In all my life I've had only one girlfriend and it wasn't serious. I am not even the type that puts "the pussy on a pedestal". As a matter of fact, that is one of the things I avoid at first. I think cold and worry about my action instead of getting dreamy. However, for the sake of my sanity, I can't seem to end up with girls that I am truly attracted to. Instead, I get paired up with the ugly girls. Fuck that, I don't know if it is my problem or something that just happens, but whenever I go for a girl I really want, it either doesn't work or she has a bf. I've gone with several girls and even kissed on the date, but nothing has evolved from that. Seriously, what the fuck. I know I can't think the worst of it because there are people that have terminal illnesses and have worse problems but fuck, it is not like I should just accept my problem and live with it.