I fractured my back over a year ago and went on a wild ride of treatments and opiate pain killers. Hydro 5s, 10 then graduated to Percs and then straight on Oxy as the pain worsened. Well it wasn't just the physical pain that brought me to such a ridiculous level of pain medications...my 2+ year relationship (a girl that moved out to Montana to live with me) was falling apart faster than an Afghani cargo transport. So I self medicated for both pains. Well that just made things worse, and I spiraled out of control. I couldnt control myself. Life was pain free and great with the meds, but painful hell on earth when I didnt have them. I felt trapped in their grip, and my mind was the only thing that could relinquish that foothold on my body. After moving home to get better rehabilitation treatment for my back I decided it was finally time to start living my life and did a lot or research (my natural tendancy) on quitting opiates/what you need/amounts and kinds or drugs used and just how much support you need. Through a trused source, I acquired some methadone and alprazolam to slowly wean myself off of the large amount of opiates that I was taking, using the taper method. So far I am 2/3rd the way through the process and I can say that I can feel my life coming back to me. I told my psychiatrist (good, trusted family friend) about my process, and he says that he wants to make sure that I am safe, which he agreed that I am doing the process right. He just wants me to keep him informed and to talk about my thoughts on the situ) I have started my video production company and I feel excited about being free from this death grip soon. Cliffs: Read the bold fellas. I just wanted to share this story because those of you who feel they cannot break the grip, CAN get free.