ok, I asked advice before, and I remember just gettin pissed of at it. My situation:- I am 22, I live at home, and my mum is on income support I live in the UK). I try my best to support her, I 30 quid a week in digs, and I pay for the internet myself. Im hoping to get back in college this year if I can get last years work sorted. Thats sort of in the works I guess. When I posted before I said I thought I had social anxiety. You all advised me to go to the doctor about this, but I guess I dont see it as being that simple. I would hate to go to the doctor and have him just blow me off. I guess I'm afraid that I dont really suffer from anything. I have really serious problems interacting with people now. I can barely talk to my mother, and I am absolutely petrified of talking to my sister. I used to have a lot of friends, but I can barely talk to them anymore. I can only really talk to the closest friend I have, and I am quickly loosing everything in common with him, simply because Im shying away from everything. I seem to suffer suicidal thoughts all the time. Mostly the thought of putting a gun to my head and just ending it. I've thought at length as to the best way I should position the gun so as to give the least chance of surviving. Luckily I live in the UK, so access to firearms is fairly restricted. I know I'm not the dumbest person in the world, and I'm far from the brightest. I'm fairly average looking, and a little bit skinny. I dont really eat enough I guess. Im afraid of goin back on the meds, because they changed me so much, I dont really know what to do.