Assuming you know nothing about the author... how would you decifer this msg? Life is simple, you make choices and you don't look back. Easy to say but hard to do. Its what I've tried to live by but it seems I'm always turning back to te past to try and make myself happy. I guess it took me 3 and a half years and the first trip to my dads grave to realize some things. See, It seems as if I spent te past 9 months or so living in a dream in which I tried to make real. But in dreams you can't get hurt. So it seems as if this "dream" was actuality. I went to my dads grave to get some peace of mind and some real thinking done. So here I stand. Confounded by truth and unfamiliar with my own thoughts. I have never come across a problem that has actually made me think so hard about a scenario in my life. But here I am. Out of the haze it seems as if I have come to a solution to my future which I ave been looking for for a long time now. Though I am still haunted by uncertainty in my decisions with this path. I know it will provide a solid structure with anything that I am to come across. The thing that really gets at me at times is when somone you dream about being with. That someone you would bend over backwards to be with them, make them happy, and give them the life they may never have just seem to ignore the oppurtunity and let it slip. Maybe one day people will learn to look at their potential future and stop fucking around. Or is it in our nature as human beings to continue to live in a dream and pretend to be happy when we are really not and still completely uncertain on what we want or how we want to live life. The thought of what is to come of this future still brings fear because even I, as I write this, do not know what I want to do. Maybe I should just go back to sleep. To the silence of my mind. I wish I could show you...that of which my dreams would show you.