I am so pissed at my mom right now.... first of all, this is how freakin retarded my dad is....i should of known better than to sit and watch a movie with them I go over to their house cause we were goin out to eat but they weren't home so i sit and wait. "Road Trip" is on so i start watching it. 10mins into it they come home. after a bit, my dad sits down and starts complaining about why does one guy have to tell the other guys that he bang some girl??? i'm like its only a movie, who cares and besides guys are like that. anway, i was all after that....15mins later, he asks me if he told me the latest about what happened with his brothers in NYC. i said no and he starts tellin me that his one brother found the other brother whacking off in the bedroom! i was like WTF man! Why's he gotta tell me that shit for?!?! god damn... anyway i was all pissy now i had been eating some cereal and i went to wash my bowl and then i started thinking about something my mom had told me the other day. Basically she told me that she wanted to help me with me bills and that she was goin to ask my dad if they could so she did but my dad said he would only help if i moved back home and changed my attitude towards them. they basically feel that i am wasting my money by renting an apartment. But up until 12+yrs ago, they were doing the same thing. They want me back home and by telling me that they will pay off my loans they are enticing me and also they are tellin me i will be able to get a newer car too. But anyway after washing my dishes I told my mom i was goin to leave cause I wasn't feeling happy right now and she said why so i told her that they are selfish for wanting me back home. I told her if they really wanted to help me then why did i have to move back home? Why can't I be on my own? I told her I want to be independant. I told her isn't it the natural way of life...as the child gets older he gains independance for himself, he starts to move on with his life as he gets older, he moves out, gets married, has children, all of that stuff and when i told her this it just pissed her off and then she started going off and she told me I don't have anything to offer a woman, that i don't even have $5,000 in the bank, that all i have is the apartment and that i can't even bring a woman their to live cause they don't allow it and that i am wasting my money by payin for something that isn't mine. She just basically went off on me telling me all kinds of shit and just makin me feel like complete crap. Eventually i got fed up after she started saying if i didn't want to go eat with them i didn't have to and she wouldn't care. She has it in her head that i am addicted to the internet. i don't believe i am. i use the internet as an outlet for my frustations, it takes me away and i forget about my worries when i am online. anyway after she started spewing crap, i just got fed up and left. didn't even look back. just walked right out. i'm so tired of their bullshit....its fuckin crazy. its like since i moved out, they've had a problem with me and the whole moving...they've admitted it too I know I made financial mistakes in my life that I am now paying for them. But damn, she throws that shit in my face every fucking chance she gets. I am always remembering what i did to myself. i don't need her fuckin reminding me all the damn time. Ok, so They offered their help. Ok thanks but Why do I have to go and play by their rules? If they help, financially, that would give me a lot of breathing room, cash wise. I would slowly pay them back and I wouldn't have to worry about being broke all the time. As it is now, I have to get a part time job to help me out and pay back some money i borrowed from them and also to help me and give me cash for myself. I haven't been saving at all since I moved out. Its been hard to save anything at all. everything has been really tight.