i know nobody has an answer but i just felt like writing. i often wonder why people have to be social creatures. wonder why we cant just be happy alone. im sure some will say you can be happy alone but if you did then you found something to fill that hole inside your heart. some of the people i know fill it with religion and god. others fill it with greed, money, and self improvement. some fill it with children or pets. some with addictions. it just seems like we are born to feel miserable having to get some kind of external way to feel good about ourselves. and even then, quite a few people are still miserable and just try not to show it. i look at life and all its beauty. i see so many reasons to be alive. so much to live for. yet i still cant soak any of it in deep enough to matter. and the saddest part is i know im not the only one. so many people. so much sadness. so much empty. surely theres more to life than this.