How is it that we always fall for the wrong people? I can honestly say that i have fallen hard for two people in the past 5yrs....Yes, two one of which everyone knows of (rob) and well it just didnt work out because of alot of stuff. i loved that person with my whole heart and more that it hurt. I heard sometimes when you love someone soo much sometimes the best thing for the other person is to let them go...And well i did just that hoping that one day he would realize she would never love him the way i did. That one day never came so i look back at that relationship and realize all that i learned from it. I was young and too young for the circumstance he put me though. There are alot of things about me that only some of my close friends know. And unfortunately i have been faced with several challenges and i learned as much as i could from each one. I can honestly say i have become a stronger person. I have learned to only be dependent on myself and only myself. When i was with rob i depended on him being there so much that when he was not there anymore i hurt so bad i could not do anything. I had never let myself get that way until he came along and well after i learned never to love someone more than you love yourself. Well i have come through it and now i can say i have moved on. Of course i will always love him because i thought he was my forever. But i deserve better. So then comes along person number two....He came in my life two years later and i dont know how i fell for person number two? Only my CLOSE friends know who this person is and i saw a different person than he turned out to be. But at the same time i think he cared too much about what his friends wanted for him versus what he wanted for himself. Idk maybe im wrong maybe he didnt feel the way i did. I never had the opportunity to tell him how much i really did care. But i think he knew without me telling him. He just made me forget about rob and i never thought someone could do that to me. But he did. I wasnt supposed to fall for person number two! And of course he hurt me too. I never told him but he did i dont even think he knows that i know wat he did. But whatever it doesnt matter anymore that was last year. I just wish things would have worked out different. I did some dumb things too and maybe i was a lil wild at the time. But he never got to know me he believed the lies he was told by who else than his friends. But i guess it just was not meant to be. I just wish things would have worked out differently. I wish he could see im not the person i was last year. Im more together than i was before. But he was a jerk too and not very mature for his age. Idk its just crazy how we fall for the wrong people. I wish i could fall for someone right for the first time. Someone who i like and treats me the way i deserve. Dont get me wrong there has been some good guys who have come along but they are just not for me. I wish i could fall for them but then again we always go for the bad guys over the good ones. And thats why we always get hurt. Im sure all my girls agree with me on that one. We all have that good guy who will do anything for us but of course we run towards the bad one. And then the good one ends up being the shoulder we cry on later. Damn lifes crazy. But i figure by the time i find the right one ill know how to appreciate him because of all the shit ive been though and the way ive been disrespected. I cant believe ive even let these guys disrespect me and here i am still saying i feel for these assholes.