Is this a bad thing? I'm not really "antisocial", or "socially anxious" (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social_anxiety). Its just that I don't care. I don't have any feeling or desire to have friends. I kind of feel like I've given up on the whole idea of having friends. When I started high school, I was new to the area(because of my father's job), and knew absolutely no one. I saw people who already knew each other, and felt like I didn't really fit in. I just moved to a new town for my senior year(because of my father's job), and I see that I'm in the exact same position. Most of the social interactions I've ever had have been awkward and very boring. I can't imagine talking with someone for more than maybe 10 minutes about something, but I see people talk on the phone for fucking hours, every day. How the hell do they do that? there can't be that much fucking stuff to talk about. I'd run out of stuff to say at 15 minutes, max. I guess I'm not a very entertaining person, but I keep getting the feeling that I'm surrounded by EXTREMELY shallow people. The things I do hear in their conversations are completely irrelevant. The kind of stuff that makes me think "why the hell would anyone care about that?" Rant, part 2: Why are people so nice? really, fuck them. I cannot stand people who ask me how my day is, like they really care. Why do they wear a superficial veil? Its like these people are constantly seeking approval. They are so phony I can't stand it. Its just that most people seem to not even notice it. Unless I am paying someone money, they have no reason at all to be nice to me. I know for a god damn fact that the person bagging my groceries would never utter the phrase "have a nice day" with a smile on their face outside of their workshift. The one thing that pisses me off more than phony people is when they expect me to be "nice" back to them. There are two things that keep coming to mind when I think about this. 1) The character "Holden" in the book, "Catcher in the Rye" and 2)The lady from the movie Office Space, who says "sounds like someone has a case of the mondays." These two things epitomize my feelings about the society I'm in right now(highschool) So is this a bad thing? Is it egotistical for me to have this kind of outlook on the world?