So i was working on my car this morning and my sponsor calls me. Background, i have been clean over 9 years now, and he had a 18 months when i got clean. We are the same age, and we became friends right of the bat. I wandered off from program, didnt use but went nuts. And when i came back, he was still there, and became my sponsor (about 3 years ago). Well we had been meaning to go over my 5th step, but hadnt met up yet. He calls me this morning and says "i have to tell you that i am leaving NA. I can no longer sponsor you". I was kind of shocked and just said "...ok". He asked if we can still be friends. I said well, I hope that you dont...jump back into that lifestyle again..." He said "oh, no no, i'm not doing that. I'm not gonna lie, i've had a drink, but its not like im going to go back and start smoking crack or something crazy" And i thought instantly I told him i dont have time at the moment to talk about it, since i had a disassembled dashboard in my lap and a hand full of screws. This really troubles me, and i want to say i didnt see it coming, but i kinda did. He got wrapped up with some born again's years ago, and they take the stance that there is no such thing as disease, it's just the devil. In a matter of 6 months, he tried to convert everyone, pulled his kids into christian school, went to church 3 times a week, made his wife host bible study, uh went to "school" as in "bible college" which they didnt have the money for, became a "pastor", got involved in all the nutty financial church schemes (which actually got him sued in the process and lost what little money he had). Then he lost his church people job, lost another job, in the process, his marriage fell apart (he went nuts, i mean telling us all about his spiritual gifts from the bible, etc, etc), his wife barely recognized him. We are talking a group that does the speaking in tongues thing, believes in Genesis literally, wife is supposed to be submissive, people who aren't saved are gonna burn in hell, power in christ, yada yada. Guys i dont know what to do I stuggle with the idea of drinking sometimes too, but in the end, getting loaded is getting loaded you know? Even one can gives you a buzz. Sick part is he's like telling me what to do, as far as getting a new sponsor and stuff, like in a friendly helpful way. Like he was, i dont know. I dont know.